Sunday, 26 February 2017

Beauty is in the eye of the beholder

Recently my eyes have been feeling dry that they are difficult to open, as if there are millions of miniscule dirt particles stuck inside. If I happen to wake up in the middle of the night, the eyes would be hard to pry open. I had to apply lubricant eye drops frequently. I wonder if I should get them treated or if this is due to age.

I am born with a lazy eye. I've never broach on this before as I assume it is obvious to people. I discovered this when I was a child, maybe 6,7 years old.  One day when I came back from school I was sitting on the floor in front of the mirror. Then I realised my eyes looked weird. I remember I was feeling sad and kept asking myself why I did not have normal perfect eyes like others. I asked myself why I did not have big beautiful eyes like others.  I guess this made me a little self conscious of my looks. If I was not pretty conventionally, my eyes made me felt even worse. So I lived the rest of my childhood feeling inadequate, shy and 'not pretty'. I feel sad whenever anyone comments on my looks, even though no one has ever mentioned about my eyes. No one was that unkind. It didn't get to the point of me being depressed or anything drastic. But it remains just a bane in my subconscious mind. Haha. 

Over the years, I've come to accept that that's the way I look. I've not talk to anyone about this and see no point in doing so. There's nothing I can do about how I'm born with. My eye sight is good without having to wear glasses. On hindsight, if I had been to the doctor when I was a kid and had it treated I might have improved my eyes and thus my looks. But with our family background then, we probably could not have afforded it anyway. And in these days of medical advances, cosmetic surgery can probably help. However I don't think I'll ever do it. 

As long as I can see and my eyes are not blind, I think I should count my blessings. Those who love me accept how I look. Those who care about me, love me beyond looks. I'll still continue taking selfies, the 'not pretty' me with loved ones and friends. Creating beautiful memories is more important than how unbeautiful I look physically.  I guess we are beautiful in our own ways. 

Monday, 30 January 2017

Gong Hei Fatt Choy!!!

Happy Chinese New Year, the Rooster has arrived! COCKADOODLEDOOOOO!!

Yes all monkey business has ended, let's hope everybody will not start talking cock!  ðŸ˜œ

Our reunion dinner a few days earlier than the actual CNY Eve, as always.

Our reunion dinner at home, we had Auspicious Yusheng, Treasure Pot with Abalone (peng cai), Prosperity Pig's Trotter, Happiness Sea Cucumber with Broccoli & Chestnuts, Fortune Deep Fried Chicken with Almonds, and Harmony Radish Pork Bone Soup! So yummy! (OK, I gave the dishes their auspicious names).

Spruced up the house for a bit before guests arrive on the first day. Love my new layout for the living room

Bumped into the God of Wealth! Huat ahh!!

It has been a rainy Chinese new year. Let's hope the rest of the year will not be stormy. But hey, without the storm you won't get to see the rainbow 🌈😄

Chinatown is spectacular as usual during  CNY.... welcoming the Rooster in its glory and splendour.

BTW my niece turned sweet 18 a couple of weeks ago and we sprung a surprise party for her. So fun! Love you always, girl! 

I thought it is significant to show my bed, as memories of CNY 2017. My sanctuary, haha! 

That's all for now, folks! Have a great year ahead! 

Saturday, 14 January 2017

2016 in a nutshell

Is it a little late to round up 2016? Anyway not going to. 

It was a sombering 2016. It has not been an easy Monkey year but I thank my loved ones for being so understanding with me, my bosses for being kind and magnanimous to me, and to all who matters to me for believing in me. Most importantly I'm grateful to my Gurus and Sangha community and Dharma friends for teaching me what's the most important in Life. I may not grasp it all still, but I'll try. Good bye 2016! 👋

This by Lang Leav quite fits the bill I guess. Looking forward to 2017.

Tuesday, 22 November 2016


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Monday, 14 November 2016

Anything is possible

I guess most of the world is still reeling and recovering from the shock of Donald Trump becoming the most powerful man in the most powerful country in the world.  My first reaction when I read the news was, "this world is crazy!".

Then someone posted,"This is a nation that has grown up on day time trash talk TV. Why would we expect anything different? Suddenly it's all become very clear. Those seeds were planted long ago". 

Were these seeds planted long ago? Maybe. In Buddhism, we believe in the law of causality (cause and effect). You reap what you sow. Everything is dependent on one another. It is the collective karma of a country and its people which create the karma for the type of leader who will lead them. 

Other recent pieces of news I heard were also shock after shock, surprise after surprise. It is a strange phenomena, a strange period of changing times. And perhaps it is no coincidence that today 14 Nov 2016 happens to be the Supermoon. This full moon will be not only the closest and brightest supermoon of 2016 but also the largest since 1948 (68 years ago).  What we do to Planet Earth, we receive in return, its triggering effects and energies, the good and bad. 

Things which we thought was status quo wasn't. Things which we least expected happened. Business partners become competitors. Close friends become enemies. Enemies become buddies. Lovers become strangers. Things which were so dear to us become just.... an object overnight.  Memories which we thought were beautiful become like something stuck in the throat. Things that we view with so much love and excitement are now just indifference. 

However, on the other hand, at the same time, whatever we view as terrible, has inadventently become, well, better.  This morning when I woke up, I felt an overwhelming sense of calmness sweeping over me. I guess it is not a bad feeling after all, experiencing some calm and happiness despite being in prickly situations. The journey never ends, it's a continuing process, from good to bad, from worst to better etc..
To me, the only one good thing we get out of this Donald Trump episode is.... it made me realise that anything everything is possible. Yes, there is HOPE!  Perhaps it will egg me on to achieve what the society or I once thought to be utterly impossible. Maybe this notion is not so crazy after all.

So, were these seeds planted long ago? Definitely. 

Everything can change in a split second, everything is changing at every moment. How dearly we pay to learn the lesson of impermanence.  

Anything is f**king possible. 

Tuesday, 1 November 2016

Thank you, readers!

It's strange. Although I've not been blogging regularly anymore, I still get emails from readers. Recently there was Libby who chanced upon my blog and read my earlier post "有你的祝福, 没有过不去的苦"  and introduced herself as a Buddhist and semi vegetarian and hoped to connect with me.

Just a couple of days ago I received an email from a lady named Veronica who wanted to meet up with me. She said she is new in Tibetan Buddhism and wanted to learn from me over lunch.

On the same day the past Sunday, which was the last day of our grand puja event, a  devotee named Lynn approached me at my booth. She said she found my blog and has been reading it. I'm so touched. I've seen her before on and off during special events but didn't know she is my reader. This is my selfie with her. Thanks for introducing yourself Lynn! 

There was another devotee who introduced herself as Miss Lam, also approached my booth to make donations and to say hi. She said she is my reader too. Wow I'm beyond speechless and touched they still remember my little low profile blog here.  I'll try to blog more, hehe...

Over the years since I started my blog more than 10 years ago, I have made friends with my blog readers and fellow bloggers, especially Dharma friends, who have become friends.


Flowers for my readers. Thank you for your friendship.

Wednesday, 14 September 2016

有你的祝福, 没有过不去的苦

Over the weekend, I spent a meaningful morning visiting the residents of a community hospital with a group of volunteers and choir Mudita from Amitabha Buddhist Centre. The purpose was to celebrate and spread some Mid-Autumn Festival cheer to them. We chit chatted with the residents while the singers went around every section of each ward singing songs and mantras continuously to the residents for 3 hours.

When I passed by one of the isolation rooms, I recognised a man inside. Two years ago, my father had a fall and was admitted to this community hospital and he stayed 2-3 weeks for rehabilitation and physiotherapy. During that time, this man who is a long term resident staying in the isolation room was still mobile. Whenever I visited my father, I remember the man was walking around the ward making a fuss here and there. Today he could not move anymore. He was just lying there with tubes connected to him. 

At the chronic unit ward, I was trying to talk to an old lady whom the nurse called Mama Bear. She could not move and her hands are twisted. They told us as most of the patients in this ward are not able to move and some could not see, so they are unable to respond or interact with us. However they can still hear us. So it is good to try to talk to them. I saw her chart and realised she is a Hokkien, so I spoke to her in Hokkien. Her eyes were closed but tears were flowing down. I did not know what else to say except to let her listen to music and mantras playing from my mobile phone. 

May all who are suffering physically and mentally be at peace, no matter what circumstances they face. My deepest respect and appreciation to all the admirable health care professionals and care providers.

It was a wonderful, thought-provoking and humbling experience for me. I recorded videos of the songs which the singers sang to the residents (so that I could replay the songs to whoever needs it in future). Whenever I replay the songs now or see the photos we took, I cannot help but to control my tears. I seriously believe that music can sooth and comfort one's soul/heart.  How wonderful it would be that during one's weakest moments, to have someone to comfort them, to stand up for them, or even just having someone's presence, is enough

Here is one song 让爱传出去 which I recorded. Love the meaningful lyrics. 


Sunday, 11 September 2016


Today is the first anniversary since Choden Rinpoche's parinirvana on 9/11 last year. 

Choden Rinpoche said, "Throughout your life, take heartfelt refuge in the Three Jewels. Always remember one's mind is the guru..... is the Buddha... in your heart. Whenever you have great fear or happiness, always think of all the objects of refuge in your heart. This will greatly help you to overcome the fears. Whatever experience you are going through, if you think all these within your heart, you can overcome all obstacles and leave the grudges of samsara behind." 

May my teacher return very soon. 🙏

Tuesday, 30 August 2016

Cherry blossoms

A Japanese friend took and sent me this beautiful pic of cherry blossoms a few months ago. He stays in Tokyo. Something to brighten my day. 

 ã‚りがとうございます Arigatou gozaimasu !

That little thing

This young monk is Charok Lama whose past life was a high practitioner and an old friend of my guru Lama Zopa Rinpoche's past life. He is around 20 years old.  Here is something from him which I found useful. (Sorry it may be a little blur as I could not find the text elsewhere).

 He likes to write little poems too and always with some special message behind it. 

A small light came to me,
And I just ignored it,
Thinking it's of no use
Cos the sun was always there,
But it kept following me,
And I kept ignoring it
Till I came across total darkness
And the sun was
nowhere to be seen,
That's when I saw
the little thing glow
And wow,
that little thing could glow.

Listen to your heart

We are often so preoccupied with our daily stuff that we hardly stop to listen to what our heart is trying to tell us. We rather spend time in many frivolous activities instead of just spending time to check how our inner world is. We often let the external surroundings dictate and engulf us and fail to recognise and check what is really important to us inside. How long do we intend to carry on searching for something which is beyond us?

Sunday, 28 August 2016

A colourful one pot meal

Buying ingredients to cook. Guess what I'm cooking? 
Preparing, cutting and marinating....

Colourful..... Boiling and let dry...

Stir frying all the ingredients..... chicken chunks, broccoli, mushrooms, and wolfberries.

Then add in the cooked pasta

Tadah! Gorgeous colors, a one pot meal. Delicious too! Goes well with sambal belachan too. Haha Chinese style aglio olio!

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